bones in my body that have been aching for months started protesting at approximately 3:30 am. they were weary of me and i could not pamper them as much as they deserved. while trying to decide whether i was dreaming or not, they, in unison, threatened to abandon me to hang in a bone-less abyss. i thought they were bluffing, as any one in the right mind would do, so i shouted back: "show me what you got!". you silly silly girl! why would you ever talk back to them? they were not bluffing at all. something happened.. that weird, tingly, suffocating, stomach-growling, throbbingly clenching sensation overwhelmed me, as if i was giving birth again. and they were GONE...without another warning. just left..
my body was extremely heavy. i could feel my own weight in full force. even though i was lying in bed the thought of moving my fingertip made me so panicky and desperate that i was already hyperventilating. i tried to calm myself down by intensely staring at the clock. i started to pray, which quickly turned into a list of promises. i took an oath of repentance and piety.
this whole scenario took place in less than a minute. 20-30 seconds maybe. i laid there motionless, panic-stricken. i still don't know whether my eyes were open or not. maybe i tasted death, maybe i was not even close. the last thing i remember is the inevitable fusing of sleep and my relief.
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