it just dawned on me that i am not as unique as i once aspired to be. i can even be considered as cliché; the way i react to unexpected behaviors, letting off steam by bickering, automatically deciding to tidy the house when leaving for vacation, and most dolefully the way i think.
once i thought i was so unpredictable, extremely cool, and utterly amusing. in retrospect, i was simply immature and didn't know any better. i didn't know myself.
a little later, i will probably look back to me now and think how ungrateful i have been. don't get me wrong. i love my life, and myself. but i need to come to terms with the fact that i am not an eccentric, nor a ground breaker. when i was young(er), i thought being unique meant automatically attracting attention. i loved people who had great presence. little did i know then..having presence meant outlandish demeanor and this lead to great admiration on my behalf. now, being calm took its place. i became so, very cliché. i clichéd the heck out of the terms. everybody seems so stressed now, unique is relaxed and content.
You still look so interesting and unique -in a way- to me. :) Don't worry about that.
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